Sharing my mourning journey as my family learns to live a new normal after the death of my 19 y.o. son in an auto accident on 10/12/08.

Happy New Year and thank you to all who visit and comment on my blog.

I’m still getting used to the notion of a new year making its entrance without Jordan here to experience it with me. Tears have flowed already this morning as I learn to live in a world where I don’t get to see my oldest son grow and prosper. Even as I wiped the tears away my heart was grateful to have family and friends that I can share my deepest feelings with and not feel misunderstood. With every year I feel a part of my grief being transformed into a powerful love that comes from being able to mother such a wonderful son as Jordan. For that gift I always say, “Thank you.”

To all of you I wish peace, time for quiet reflection and experiences of real joy in 2012.

My family on Christmas Eve

Comments on: "Learning to look forward-2012" (4)

  1. Charlie's avatar

    Happy New Year. I do so hope it brings you some peace and happiness.

  2. Janet Macy's avatar

    Isn’t that so true. It’s so hard to go into another year without them. It’s been 25 years since my 16 y/o died. I still do not like New Years eve. The mantra seems to be “I don’t want to do another year without him’.

    And yet – we go on and live and work and love.

  3. claire's avatar

    Happy New Year. Thinking of you, as ever. Your family is just beautiful.
    XOXO
    Claire

  4. Rebecca Carney - One Woman's Perspective's avatar

    What a beautiful family picture. I, too, seem to reflect on New Year’s Eve…thinking, “I can’t believe I’m facing another year without Jason.”

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